Trigger Warning: About an abusive alcoholic father from a short story I wrote called “Daddy”

Lyrics:

[Intro] Yeah, this one’s for anyone out there, Dealing with demons, struggling, You’re not alone, I feel your pain, man, it’s tearing you apart.

[Rap - Father] Dear Angel, I’m lost again, drunk and alone, Woke up in a ditch, can’t even find our home. My head’s spinning, can’t even remember last night, All I know is I messed up, yeah, I know I ain’t right. You see, I used to have dreams, but now they’re all gone, Drowned in the bottle, and I know it’s all wrong. You’re my light, my reason, but I keep on fallin’, Every time I try to stop, it’s like the devil’s callin’. I swear, Angel, I don’t mean to cause you pain, But this monster inside me, I just can’t contain. I see your face, and it kills me inside, Knowin’ that I’ve hurt you, makes me want to hide. But I can’t run, can’t escape what I’ve done, Just know, baby girl, I’ll make it right, before I’m gone.

[Chorus - Daughter] Daddy, don’t let me down, You gotta change or I won’t stick around. I’m waitin’ for the man you could be, I know you can be better, and I want you to show me.

[Chorus - Daughter] Daddy, don’t let me down, You gotta change or I won’t stick around. I’m waitin’ for the man you could be, I know you can be better, and I want you to show me.

[Bridge - Father] I know I’ve done wrong, Angel, I know it’s true, But I swear, I didn’t mean to hurt you. I’m sorry for every time I made you cry, Sorry for every night I came home high. But this battle inside, I don’t know how to win, I’m drownin’, baby girl, drownin’ in sin.

[Verse 3 - Father] So here I am, broken and beat, Lyin’ in the street, can’t get back on my feet. I see the faces, hear the whispers of shame, Everyone knows I’m the one to blame. But all I care about is you, my sweet girl, You’re the only thing that’s real in this twisted world. I wish I could go back, undo all the wrongs, But now I’m just another sad song. I see you runnin’, tears in your eyes, And I know I’m the reason for all your goodbyes. So I’ll lay here, in the mess I’ve made, Hopin’ that someday, the pain will fade.

[Chorus - Daughter] Daddy, don’t let me down, You gotta change or I won’t stick around. I’m waitin’ for the man you could be, I know you can be better, and I want you to show me.

[Father] I’m sorry, Angel… I’m so sorry…

[Outro - Daughter] Dear Brian, I can’t call you Dad no more, Not after what you did, left me bruised and sore. You don’t even see the damage you’ve done, Starin’ at that bottle like you’re already gone. I tried to save you, tried to bring you back, But every time I reach out, you just fade to black. I hate you for what you’ve become, for who you are, But deep down, I still love you. I remember when you were my hero, my knight, Now you’re just a ghost, fadin’ out of sight. How could you hit me, treat me like dirt? Don’t you see, Brian, you’re the one who’s really hurt. I don’t know how much longer I can stay, Watchin’ you waste your life away. So here’s my final letter, my last goodbye, Brian, you’ve lost me, and now I have to try… To find peace, to find a way to heal, I just wish your love had been real.

[Daughter] Daddy, don’t let me down, [Father] I’m so sorry.

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